Sunday, May 29, 2005

Biff emailed me!

To: Angela
Subject: Re: BIG POP FUN Feedback

Thank you very much, Angela!
Tom

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Science is cool

Reading this article about a Pitt engineering professor and his student who found a new way to remove mercury from power plant emissions, I think that I want to do that too. Fuck this poetry shit. Science is cool. There is a delicate and intanglible purpose to all this writing, though it's not like the results one could get from building a little robot and make it do sumersalts, or making robots that would replace ten jobs at a car plant. I should have gone to Cal Tech and been a cosmoslogist. Though, they make up math problems to plot things that aren't seen, just like I make up phrases and sometimes words to "plot" other things that aren't seen. So, cosmology would, in some ways, be the same writing poems. That's what makes both of them so cool!

Saturday, May 28, 2005

"...a raving lunatic..."

-From the Post Gazette, March 21, 2005...

"Kids' abuse of over-the-counter cold medicine on the rise

By Alana Semuels

Sharon Smith found the empty packets of cold medicine and bottles of cough syrup in her son's room, but he told her the medications made him feel intelligent and invincible, just as he had learned from the Internet.

It's just cold medicine, he rastionlized. How much harm could it do?

But, it did not take long for Smith's son to turn from a shy, easygoing teenager into what she calls 'a raving lunatic.' He would drink four bottles of cough syrup at a time , or swallow tablets of Coricidin Cough and Cold, and become furiously angry and violent, breaking things in his house and punching the wall.

Since then, he's been in and out of the hospital, incarcerated twice, and plagued with mental health problems that doctors say might affect him for the rest of his life.

"You can take a sweet, loving child and they become something that you are afraid of..."

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Essence of A

I stole this template below from someone's journal.

time started: 12:39 AM

full name: Angela Kristen Bayout
nickname(s): Ange
birthday: 10.17.83
where were you born: Pittsburgh, PA
zodiac sign: libra
hair color: dark brown, now it's a little reddish
eye color: brown
shoe size: 8, 8 1/2
grade: going on 16th grade!
GPA: 3.7
siblings: Allan, 17
tattoos: bluebird on my shoulder. Actually, upper left back, behind my shoulder
piercings: 13. 6 in each ear and one for my chubby tummy
favorite color: red
food: chocolate
candy: oh, chocolate
pizza topping: extra cheese
cereal: Count Chocula
fruit: strawberries, cherries, peaches, green apples, pineapple
vegetable: canned green beans, broccoli, and asparagus
cake: Dairy Queen ice cream cake
book: I hate that question because I never can think of any. The first thing that came to mind right now was Wuthering Heights, but that’s not my favorite. Though, no one asked for a favorite.
movie: Flashdance. There’s a movie for you.
website: this looks good.
tv show: Nip/Tuck, but it hasn’t been on in a while… these days its syndicated Law and Order at 3 and 4 pm, when I’m home.
music group: U2, White Stripes, Neko Case, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Velvet Underground, Patti Smith, so on. The Kills most recently.
day of the week: a good one
month: October.
season: Autumn.
holiday: I suppose Halloween to keep with the scheme. Yeah, it’s Halloween.
number: 1,017
weekend activity: sleep in
hangout: sure.
sport to play: shopping, walking
animal: birds
flower: wildflowers
guy's name: James
girl's name: Sara
story from childhood: Snow White
body part: hands or feet, or teeth

have you ever…
been on a train: nope. Would like to.
been on a plane: yes. I like planes
been in a car accident: once, it was stupid.
caused a car accident: no,
burned a potato chip: I suppose after I ate it, the jumping jacks in the kitchen burned it off, though the forced vomiting got rid of it faster.
smoked: yes, and sometimes, sometimes, I get carried away nowadays, like the one night about a month ago with Crystal…
been drunk: of course
been high: yes, you’re not missing much
broken the law: both unintentionally and intentionally
burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes): I suppose after I ate it, the jumping jacks in the kitchen burned it off, though the forced vomiting got rid of it faster.
kissed someone of the opposite sex: yes
kissed someone of the same sex: yes
frenched an animal: Oh God! beastiality it a no-no!
made out: yes.
gotten engaged: no way.
been rejected by a crush: yes.
loved: Yes~
made yourself cry to get out of trouble: not on cue.
cried in public: try not to.
cried over a movie: yes, and I get made fun of for it.
fallen asleep in a movie theater: don’t think so, but I might have when my dad took me to see the first Star Wars prequel.
skied: When my dad got my brother and I a video camera for Christmas one year, and we filmed ourselves sledding down the dinky hill on the side of our house, and then we tried to snowboard on the sled…
met the president: I know the president of Carlow’s SGA.
met a celebrity: I guess. I’ve waited on news anchors at my old work. Also, I was very close to meeting the “Inconceivable” guy from The Princess Bride not too long ago.
gotten a cavity: yes, but not in a long, long time. These chompers are A++ Gold Star!
made a prank call: oh yeah.
skipped school: yes.
faked sick to get out of school: yes.
purchased something that you knew didn't fit: yes, but only because I really liked it. I made myself fit.
climbed a tree: yes.
fallen from a tree: no
broken a bone: nope.
sprained anything: no. I guess I’m more of an indoor girl.
passed out: no. Oh wait, yes, and Stacy let me throw up all night in her garbage can and, that was a really bad time.
been to Disney World: yes.
been to a theme park (not disney): yeah, Busch Gardens in Virginia is fun!
said i love you and meant it (not to a relative): I think so, but that would depend on the definition of "love." I sound like Bill Clinton.
made a model volcano (working model): no, everyone else was doing, why should I have?
made a clover leaf with your tounge: can’t do it.
what did you do yesterday: was off from work, stayed in my pjs until after noon, started watching The Two Towers but lost interest, traded in some books for cash, got a hot fudge sundae with Spanish peanuts at Dairy Queen with my mom.
memory you miss the most: I really can’t think of anything
something you regretted after it was done: The person I stole this from said “I have no regrets” and I don’t believe them. To me, that means you feel you’ve never made a mistake, so there’s little you could have learned from. Maybe I have a thing against that idea because Madonna is known for saying “absolutely no regrets” and Madonna should just stop. I regret some things, but it's nothing to dwell over.

the last…
song you heard: Neko Case “Hex”
cd you bought: Nico, Chelsea Girls. and then I ate Necco wafers
thing you said: hrm, probably something to my dad, we were watching tv together, can’t remember what I said. I was about to go to bed, and then I got distracted, and now here I am doing this crazy thing at 1:19 AM.
time you cried: today.
movie seen in a theater: Robots with Ashley, I think.
thing you ate: a chicken salad. it was okay.
person who called: wasn’t for me, that’s for sure.
nail polish shade worn: dark red my friend Ellie gave me for my last birthday
time you showered: last night. surprisingly, it was not 10 minutes ago.

at this moment:
what are you listening to: Still “Hex” by Neko Case, because I accidentally started the song over.
what are you wearing: Spider Man pj pants, gray cardigan, and my Pitt basketball t-shirt I bought while with Ashley freshman year, the day we tried to spend 5 or more hours at Sciulli’s, but after a series of events, we ended up witnessing the Second Coming when the sun followed Christopher Walken into my dorm room…
how many people are on your buddy list: 23

do you believe in
heaven: no.
hell: no.
angels: maybe.
devil: Soy El Diablo
god: I suppose, not in a conventional cut and dry way, though
aliens: yes
ghosts: yes
spirit (soul): yes
soulmates: good friends are better.
reincarnation: yes
love at first sight: no.
karma: yes I experience it from time to time.
love in general: it’s such a broad word, I can’t say whether or not.
luck: I think I’m a lucky person
yourself: not often enough.

crush
who and when was your first crush: David Bowie on the Diamond Dogs album when I was very young. Also, when Twin Peaks first came on tv, my dad let me watch it, and I liked Kyle MacLachlan.
any now: no, but I should find one, it’s a good distraction. There’s that cute nerdy boy at the library that rides the 54C after we close…
a celebrity crush: Katie Holmes
who do you want to be with right now: Joe
whose number do you want: the person’s ahead of me in the deli line.
who do you want to kiss: Jonathan! I should have tackled him that one day when I was wearing my cherry skirt…
if you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be: date? I guess someone with a lot of money and a nice car and would buy me anything I wanted and take me anywhere I wanted to go, so for one night I can be a shallow, gold digging, hot girl.
on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you: threve
is it right to flirt if you're taken: whatever, does it really matter anyway?
do you want to hug somebody right now: sure. Any time is a good time for a hug!
do you know what an aphrodisiac is: uh, yeah.

one or the other…
coke/pepsi: Coke. Caffeine free Coke is best. Diet, no.
gold/silver: silver.
vanilla/chocolate: chocolate.
flowers/candy: candy.
book/magazine: book.
glass half empty/half full: glass should be full of strawberry milkshake.
democrat/republican: the lesser of two evils. Hahaha.
colored pencils/markers: permanent markers on the inside of the bathroom door.
coffee/tea: decaf coffee with 2 sugars and cream so that it’s the color of caramel. Chamomile tea.
sun/moon: moon.
day/night: night.
hot/cold: warm
dog/cat: cat
button/zipper: zippy
blue/purple: blurple
plumber/trashman: trashman.
jeans/shorts: jeans. I don’t do shorts. If we call shorts “shorts” then why can’t we call pants, “longs?”
peanut butter/jelly: peanut butter.
waffles/pancakes: waffles
florida/california: Florida.
pizza/burgers: pizza.

miscellaneous:
do you shave: yes.
where: shh.
what size is your bed: single
what color crayon would you be: “marvelous.” smell the box of crayons.
what are the last four digits of you phone number: TROT, apparently, at least back at the dorms.
how long does it take you to shower: about 10 minutes.
is cussing a necessity in life: language is a necessity in life
how about coffee: no thanks
what’s something you cant live without: listeing to music
what time did you fall asleep: last night, maybe around midnight, early.
what do think about death: he’s a nice guy.
where and when do you want to be married: I don’t think I would like to get married.
what do you always think about: if I’m feeling all right, it’s good to address your feelings to yourself. Otherwise, potatoes.
do you talk to yourself: yes she does.
what is your reaction to someone telling you you're hot: say “yeah, whatever” meanwhile I eat it up like poor kids eat Ramen noodles, smile and giggle.
what would you change your name to: Angela: Mistress of the Crocodiles.

time finished: 1:57 am

Duckorations

Here's another one of my super ideas. It's part of the Angela's Super Ideas Series. It's Duckorations and it's going to shake the country's tail feathers! They're decorations with a duck theme. For every holiday you can hang something up in your house that reminds of just how quacky ducks are. There are mallards dressed up like Santa Claus, scary witches, and more.

Who's in?

Friday, May 20, 2005

Somewhere there have got to be large mammals on ice

Posted by Hello
I wanted to go iceskating last night

Last night, my mom picked me up from work and then we went to eat at Drew's Resturant in Forrest Hills. We had a good time chatting and such. My mom later said, to our cat Leo, that it's fun to be with me because she can act fifteen and it be okay. That was very nice.

Then, since I didn't have to work today, I decided to watch TV as long as I could and wait for those leggy bugs to come crawling from the bathroom downstairs. We have those leggy, ugly, furry, brownish bugs in the house, and almost every night one skitters from the bathroom and across the ivory living room rug. I don't like to kill bugs. I don't really, but I also and skittish about killing big ugly bugs like that. Shut up! I am. It's okay. What's not okay is that I started watching Flashdance and decided I would watch the movie once and for all. Almost all my girlfriends just love, love, love that piece of crap movie. So I started watching it, seeing the same scenery and buildings I've seen almost everyday of my life (being that it was filmed in Pittsburgh) and just got bored. But, it did get me reminicing about when I was a young dreamer like that girl. Though I still have ambitions, I don't feel as impressionable and light headed as that girl did. I guess what I mean is that I feel like a cynical old brat.

And there was a scene where the dancer's friend was trying to show her how to ice skate, and that made me want to ice skate. I've only been 2 or 3 times, and over this past X-mas break I got the hang of it.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

yum, celery and peanut butter

Anyway, in this independent journal I got for free, Elixir, there is a part of a poem by an MFA grad named Jenny Toups:

" They come down again--
the birds--sparrows, bluejays, robin red-breasts,
land on street lamps, tiled rooftops,
yards of rock. The world is built,
and built and built--
and still they come back down"

I always thougt that, too. I read it while on the 67A bus today.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Word of the Day
CHAUVINIST
Definition:someone prejudiced in favor of a group to which he or she belongs
Example:The attitude that men are inherently superior to women and therefore must be obeyed is common among male CHAUVINISTS.
Synonyms:bigot, elitist
Click here for pronunciationand full definition

Why is it that I never hear that word used any other way?

Saturday, May 14, 2005

MARSHMALLOWS!!!

I always say that the stacks at the library smell like toated marshmallows. It's only when its warm, though, and lately it's been summertimey warm...so it smells like toasted marshmallows! YAY. Yay, yay, yay.
I was making a run for a patron, and it just hit me as I came back down the stack steps; Marshmallows!

Monday, May 09, 2005

Dinosours

My mom asked me, "Well how are they?" I said "I have to make them first! I have to get little dinosaur molds and candy recipes and a warehouse and a patent and someday Dinosours will be a reality."

We were watching a show on the Food Network about this candy shaped like Scottish Terriers and I said that once I had a great idea to make a candy shaped like dinosaurs, thus the above conversation. I got the clever idea when I was typing "dinosaurs" but I accidently replaced an O with the A. Dinosours! Later in class I drew a prototype on the board and explained it to the class. They will be dinosaur shaped hard candies with sour fruity flavors. There will be T-Rexes, Triceratops, and Teradactyles. Maybe even a line of prehistoric mammalia.

This is awesome! Who's in?

Saturday, May 07, 2005

"The cosmic worms go in, the cosmic worms go out."

from the website:

"It has been noted that something out of the ordinary always seems to occur at these graveside tributes to H.P.L., often involving a sudden and dramatic change in weather conditions. To cite an example from the March 15, 1998, service, unanticipated snow flurries fell for the precise span of a dirge, sung by an attractive young woman clad in a black cape and hood. The sunshine then just as suddenly reappeared. At the following year's service, crows that had ominously gathered in the surrounding trees, seemingly to observe the assemblage, began loudly cawing as the lady's singing commenced. Also, inexplicable, vaporous distortions appear on some of the photographs taken during that service. At the service conducted on April 2, 2000, surprisingly forceful wind gusts seemed cued to the readings of Lovecraft's horror!"

Click on the link above and read more...

Why do hipsters suddenly appear...

This morning I went to Kiva Han on Craig for a hot chocolate. I thought to myself, as the girl with sort-of-my-haircut and the straight leg pants steamed my milk, "Why the hell do hipsters all work here?" It must be discrimination. I don't think that I am hip enough to work there, that's why I hang out at the library. The library is for people like me. I like to leave the desk every so often and run for a book or two. Then, I read them at the desk and zone out for a while. Can I do that at Kiva Han? Nope. I have to steam milk and look hip. Looking hip can't be easy either, no way. Here, I just have to wear some clothes. Kiva Han, I have to wear tight, straight leg pants and a novelty t-shirt. You know what, who am I fooling. I could fit right in. I look the role, I probably wouldn't have to audition. I bet if I wore my eyeglasses for the interview I would get right in. I don't even have to try to look this cool, though. I was born this way. Is it hip to ramble and forget what one was even talking about? Well, if so, again I am in. Still, I would rather be in the library.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

...only, strawberries don't really vine.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

seeds...

Here is a prose poem. My friend inspired me to write one like this. (I was also inspired by flossing and strawberries.) The puncuation is probably messed up. And, I still need a title.
...

I flossed last night in front of the bathroom mirror so I could see all white and bright, and there were strawberry seeds from this past May lodged the crevices of my teeth that began to germinate, sprout little buds, and there was one leaf in between my molars that I pulled on slightly so as to not rip it, but it needed a little more action, so I pulled harder and found a whole vine from my molars all the way to my stomach because when I tugged in it, something tickled the dome of my stomach and it made me laugh, it was the fuzzy green stems of strawberry plants crawling up my esophagus from my stomach where the rest of the strawberry seeds settled and started a home, and I kept pulling and pulling like I was reaching for an apparent bucket in a stone well, while star flowers along the fuzzy vine popped from the black of my throat, and the vine was so long I lost patience so instead of snapping it off or yanking hard enough for it to break, because I thought that may hurt me some, I skittered into the kitchen for the scissors in the junk drawer, the same scissors I use to cut my bangs, and then I shuffled back into the bathroom trying not to go too fast or else my slippers would fall off and I would trip, meanwhile I was trying not to trip over the vines tracing the planks of the hallway’s hardwood floor. In the mirror, I opened my mouth as wide as I could and probed the pointed blades as far back as I could, snipped the vine, and I had to use force for it was like cutting a wooden pencil the kids use in school, I coughed from the naked end of the vine and its milks streaming out of it and I swallowed the vine quickly and felt it slither back home and twine around itself down there in my stomach, meanwhile my throat and my chest felt like I had eaten a whole can of hot popped Coke in a hurry and I could have belched and hiccupped back shiny, red berries with green feathered hats and little freckles that get stuck in my teeth and nestle in the soil of my stomach.