Showing posts with label running. Show all posts
Showing posts with label running. Show all posts

Monday, July 06, 2015

Marathon Training Week Four

Sunday 6/28 - 9 miles!

I thought that maybe last week's magic 5 miles under an hour was a fluke, but nope! Today's 9 mile run, the first truly long run, imo, during this program was a piece of cake. I was worried because this is where I start to break down. While I have happily crossed four half-marathon finish lines, I always start to FEEL it around 9 miles.

Thanks to the Springwater Trail, I was able to blow through miles 5 to 8 without even realizing how far I'd gone. If I wasn't totally in the zone, I would pull out my phone and snap pictures of some of my favorite points of interests during my route, such as the footbridge over McLoughlin/99 or this really cool building somewhere on the southwestern end of Sellwood that has waterfowl painted on it. My average pace was 11:15/mile! Woo!

One of my favorite ways to carb up.

 Tuesday 7/1 

Three miles in the morn'. 

Beer=the most fun way to carb up.
Wednesday 7/2 

Woke up at the crack of dawn to run 5 miles. Shudder. 

Eating healthy is beautiful in Oregon!
Thursday 7/3

Today I just needed to sleep in. There was no choice. Sometimes you just need to sleep off the sleeps! Took an afternoon three-mile run around the 'hood.

Friday, June 26, 2015

Marathon Training Week Three

I don't have any pictures from my training this week, so here's a picture of a surfing alpaca!

Sunday RUNDAY - 5 miles.

This was a big accomplishment for me today because it was the first time I ran 5 miles in less than an hour! It took me 58 minutes, so just under, but still! It could have had to do with the fact that we ran into a slightly sketchy part of Clackamass that I was eager to get out of, but hey, it got me to push myself! Running longer than three miles at a time and to not break more than 12 minutes a mile is an accomplishment for me. Go me!

Tuesday 6/23

Nice afternoon 3 miles to 60th and Division's water fountain. Did come across a weirdo walking around grabbing his junk...which reminds me that I should think more about a "Take Back the Night" style run. It'd be really cool to lead something like that!

Wednesday 6/24

Evening run and hot as fuck. Seriously hot. Ran 4 miles somehow.

Thursday 6/25

Today was v hot again. In fact, I got dehydrated on just 3 miles. Thank goodness for the water fountain at Essex Park, just a minute walk from my apartment. I'm not sure if I would have made it all the way home.

This week was pretty good despite the heat!

Friday, June 19, 2015

Marathon Training Week Two

Sunday (long run) 6/14
Seven miles, and the ice packs to prove it.


 Oh, and just look at those tan lines...

Tuesday 6/16

As my husby ran ahead of me about a tenth of a mile, a cute elderly couple strolled by on their morning walk. The gentleman said to me, "he's running away from you!" Love old man jokes.

Wednesday 6/17

Omg, two days in a row of getting up at 6 AM to...run. I have gotten over my partial hatred of running (I think for most runners there are times when you honestly just hate it so much and wonder why you do it at all). What I have yet to get over is getting up early. I don't think I can ever truly enjoy getting up early. But, after 4 miles, it's not so bad. Could be better though.

Thursday 6/18

Tomorrow, I shall sleep until 8 am and it will be glorious. Circulation feels sluggish today. I think I'm just spent.




Thursday, June 11, 2015

Marathon Training Week One

Sunday, June 7

My style usually consists of black this, black that, and some polka dots. But when I'm running, I'm like tropical bird, bitch.


Today was spent running 6 miles from our apartment to roughly SE Glastone and SE 25th in Portland. It was a HOT day, almost 90. I did the right thing and followed my husband (who is adorably milky-white and freckly) in slathering myself head to two (even under the mesh panels of my top) with 55 SPF sunscreen. Not only did I get a nice little toast, but I sweated my ass off and it felt amazing.

My biggest takeaway from this run was seeing my husband, who also is training with me, enjoy his run so much. He hasn't been running lately and was worried about jumping right into a relatively big 6 miles. As he declared mile 5, he seemed giddy and proud. Those feelings radiated straight onto me and I felt so happy for him.

Tuesday, June 9

Today my morning run took place at one of my favorite places in the world - the beach. During a short last-minute trip to Seaside, OR, I took the opportunity to run 3 miles on their oceanfront Promenade as friendly fellow runners and strollers all said "hello."

Above is the sea grasses making up part of the expansive shore with the northern side of Tillamook Head in the foggy distance. Sign, the fresh sea air!

Wednesday, June 10


Another day on the beach! Oh! Life is hard! But not today. Half of my 3 miles were done again on the Promenade, but then I just had to get on the sand. This beach's broad span and the low tide made it easy to run on firm sand. While it doesn't offer a lot to beachcombers, there's still a lot of lovely sights.




Thursday, June 11

Back in Portland, I did my 3 miles on a typical route that I usually take, which leads me to the closest public fountain I know of to me, at SE 60th and Division. I love these things!

Week one down.

Friday, January 09, 2015

On Practice, Patience, and Persistence / Knitting, Running, and Writing


I have quiet hobbies because I'm a quiet person. For a year now I've finally been learning music, succeeding mainly on the quirky, very simple, Omnichord. Expressing myself through music is scary to me. Me making noise kind of scares me. Drawing attention to myself is something I never consider doing, and when it happens I shrink back into a shell. And, I'm Okay with that. I'm just a quiet person. I'm a lone wolf with a pair of knitting needles.

Music is a challenge I'm amazed at myself for doing at all. I wouldn't have gotten to this point were it not for the hobbies I naturally took up and which have formed who I am now, a person who can do anything if she embraces three things: practice, patience, and persistence.

Practice, patience, and persistence depend on each other. They form a shining circle, a feedback loop. For a number of years I've been writing, knitting, running, pushing myself through each of them (in varying degrees, however) because of the in-the-moment joy they stir up. Here are my reflections on my hobbies. Perhaps you can relate?

Practice
Fundamentally, knitting is performing an action over and over and over. I picked up knitting in the summer of 2005 on a whim. It was trendy at the time, and Target sold a starter kit with plastic number ten needles (which I understand now were of very low quality), pink eyelash yarn (a fad that was a terrible yarn to learn on), and a confusing tutorial DVD. I bought it the day I borrowed my dad's car to distract myself from the commencement of my grandmother's health decline and the angry absence of my brother. The car ran out of gas less than a mile from home. Whoops.

For almost ten years now, I've been learning knitting and I'll never stop learning. There are always many more miles of yarn to manipulate with untried stitches, alternative techniques, and new patterns. And, as long as lace knitting remains difficult, I'll be learning that forever. Cables look hard, but they're actually fairly easy. Lace knitting looks hard and IS hard. Each individual stitch requires full attention, even the ones in rows of straight purls. I've been trying to do the Stitch n Bitch Sweetheart Sweater for a few days now. I've started it over three times, and I'm going to have to go for a fourth now. The full lace pattern occurs over 10 rows and I've yet to complete the round more than twice. My piece looks like the ugliest slice of Swiss cheese you'll never eat. This is how every lace knitting project for me goes. I've never completed a lace project.

A pin-hole photo of my knitting from 2006.
This time, with all that I've been experiencing, I am able to really look at that wonky piece of work and see how much I've actually done at all, not only what I'm doing wrong. I managed to complete one set of the pattern only to get halfway through the next to see that the stitches aren't lining up, and no matter what I do that isn't ripping out the done rows, it doesn't look right. But, I managed to complete one set. I practiced that ridiculous pattern over three times now, and I'm only getting better.

I may not finish this sweater. Maybe I will and it will represent some sort of achievement. And, maybe I'll never wear it. But, right now, it's reminding me how much practice makes a difference. With every new turn at this damn sweater, I get better. With every mile I run, I can breath smoother, with every draft I write I get closer to making a connection with other weirdos out there.

Patience 
You can't practice well on a deadline. Lately, I've felt pressed for time. Deadlines have formed out of my own theories and ifs. My phone isn't on silent, yet it sits next to me and I keep checking it for a call I hope to get in time for...something. The phone utters no peep. True, I'd like to be out of my current apartment and into a cheaper one before a certain time, but it's no tragedy if I'm not, only a struggle if one other thing doesn't happen. etc. Overall, there's a dread in my chest simply because I'm trudging through uncharted territory right now.

When I moved into my first very own apartment in 2006, a fresh college grad, I decided I would become a runner. I bought bad tennis shoes at Payless, neglected warm-ups and stretching, and barely considered a training plan. I was out of breath before I started. That didn't last long. The second time I tried taking it up, in 2010 during my early years living in San Francisco, I made the same mistakes again. Both times I had the urge to jump out and run. Fast. Deep inside, it wasn't out of a desire to be healthier or thinner, to be a winner in some timed race. I had something inside of me that was trying to bust out and would only swell uncomfortably when I rushed into easing this restlessness.

When my husband wanted to get in on the running action, he smartly did his research. We started with the attainable Couch to 5k program and it only got better from there. Today, I'm about a quarter of the way through training for a marathon. A fucking marathon, sons of bitches. And, I WANT do to it.

It's probably going to take me over five hours to complete a marathon. I've finished my last half in two hours and thirty-eight minutes. Most of the my I practice running with music blaring, which gets me in the zone and transforms those miles into minutes flying by. During races runners are encouraged to keep the headphones off for safety reasons, but it's also exhilarating to be aware of the party of thudding feet around you. Even without music, during a good race the miles and the minutes fly by. Your mind becomes still while your body is flying.


Now, maybe half of all of my runs are this Zen-like. Of the half that aren't, I usually want to give up on. It's boring and painful. I'm acutely aware of the damage I'm doing to all the bones in my back, knees, shins, feet. Unable to breath into my stomach while my neck and shoulders constrict like I'm a turtle hunching into its shell. I'm saying very eloquently in my head as I look at the time, "Oh come ooooooon mother fuckers!" Sometimes I finish one of these runs and feel terrible.

So, how did I get to the point of wanting to run a marathon? Patience! Whether I run an eleven or a fourteen minute mile, It takes time to finish one. It takes time to complete the nine mile loop. It takes time to reach the point where you can push through the boring miles and truly want to keep going past mile 13.1. I've always been pretty patient and have been able to tolerate long lines, waits for tables and stuff like that. But I've never been so graceful in waiting for answers to where my life will be in a month, a year, five years. Waiting to know if the other shoe will drop or if whatever it is I'm anxious about today will resolve itself. The difference between dealing with the anxiety of waiting five years ago and dealing with it now is that I can think of the patience I'm forced to face when completing a big run. You'll get there. It will be there when you get there. It will end and you'll have a new perspective after it's over. If it's not what you wanted, then you try next time.

Persistence 
But it's true, practice does make perfect--if you can accept perfection as never reaching an endpoint. I like that philosophy, but I do bulk at it when I think of my writing. I said last week that my writing is like a succulent, growing very slowly. Of the hobbies I'm discussing here, writing is the act I do the least. Perhaps because it's not a hobby. It's my calling. It's just what I do. I regard it the highest inside of myself. It's the most mercurial--an idea burns hotly just before I fall asleep only to be completely forgotten the next time I'm by a pen and paper. It mocks me when I draw blanks, It disappoints. It hurts. I really fucking hate it sometimes.

While I'm persistent in my running programs, working my schedule around miles, and I'm persistent in getting that crazy pattern just right even if I retire by the time it happens, I'm just not quite there in my writing. I can't seem to tame it so that I regularly write. I'm trying now, yet again. Every January I come up with a plan. Every following November I ignore NanoWriMo emails. Maybe going back to school will help, maybe letting go and being wild in my writing habits will if I had a better memory. Maybe I just have to quit bitching and do it.

But, persistence. If I can do it running, dragging my high school gym class self through a marathon, counting every single little stitch in a lacy sweater, I should theoretically be able to complete the writing dreams I've had for most of my life.

In conclusion of sorts, I thought of a cool tattoo idea honoring my hobbies and their virtues. In the meantime, please encourage me to keep writing, even if you don't like this blog. :P I encourage you to embrace practice, patience, and persistence the next time you feel frustrated, anxious, overwhelmed, inadequate. As Counselor Troi says in Star Trek TNG "Decent Part I," "Feelings aren't positive and negative. They simply exist. It's what we do with those feelings that becomes good or bad." Q might consider that "pedantic psychobabble," but I think it's Okay for now. TNG rules.


Thursday, September 11, 2014

3 in 30: 13.1 Reasons Why I Love Having Running in My Life

Me getting ready for my second 5k in 2012.
This October, I will be completing my fourth half marathon. It would be my second since turning 30.  Ever since I first started running in 2010, my life has gotten better!

I used to not be very active or health conscious. After moving to San Francisco with its agreeable, must-go-out-and-run weather, things changed. Seeing so many other runners enjoying getting fit in the temperate weather and fresh air inspired my husband and I. We started with the Couch to 5k program and since then have run thousands of miles together. Seriously, if I add it up, it's got to be in the thousands!

The best running I've done, though, has been in this year, my 30th year. This past July, I finished the San Francisco Half in about 2 hours and 48 minutes, never stopping once. Never stopping once! That was my biggest running accomplishment to date. I still can't believe I freaking ran nonstop for almost three hours. As crazy as it sounds, I can't wait to do it again!

During my training for the upcoming Healdsburg Wine Country Half, I've been thinking more specifically about why I love running. Here is a list of 13.1 (har har) reasons why I'm happy running has become a part of my life.

1. Music.
From mixes containing singles from Fleetwood Mac and Prodigy to full albums like Arcade Fire's Neon Bible, the perfect tunes blasting in my giant pink headphones really make a difference. I personally must have really big music laden with thoughtful lyrics (or just plain ol' silly ones). Getting into the zone with the music is essential to a good run.

I'm not going to lie, I do pretend that the music is being performed by my own imaginary band. While running, I fantasize about what my band would be called, what I would wear, what kind of guitars I would use for each part, what songs I might play simple percussion on, what my hometown comeback concert would be like. It gets in intense. When I run, I'm a rock star in my head and on the pavement.

During the latest SF Half Marathon, I was coming up on mile 8, only I didn't know it because I noticed zero mile marker signs on the route. Pulp's "This Is Hardcore" came on in my headphones. I thought "Yeah, this is hardcore. I'm hardcore, bitches!" I saw the 8 mile mark sign, feeling totally awesome, thinking "I just ran 8 miles? No way! I'm seriously hard core!"

The first time I ran for a solid five minutes, I couldn't believe it.

2. Being in the zone.
I mentioned this phrase above. When I'm in the zone for most of my run, the run becomes meditation. I'm motionless in the moment while moving, piling on the miles while being as still as stone. Slipping into a meditative state is probably the easiest thing about running--once it happens. You can't force it to happen, it just happens. When it does and you realize later that you've been in that state, it's so rewarding. I never could, as an adult, get into meditation while simply sitting. Meditative running sort of just happened to me, and it's a gift!

3. Races are fun!
You get free snacks, coupons, a t-shirt, and camaraderie from fellow runners. Sometimes there's even beer at the finish line!

4. An excuse to wear neon.
You may remember my No Bullshit Wardrobe which consists mainly of black knits. I don't own one piece of black running wear.
Me after finishing the 2014 SF Half Marathon. #BUCN
5. Having gained patience and persistence.
The Couch to 5k program could not have been a more perfect intro to running for me. I never knew it could or should have been done that way. You don't buy the cheapest pair of shoes and start racing at full speed only to chide yourself for only lasting a few minutes. It takes time and practice. When I in the past threw myself into running on occasion without doing any research or taking the necessary time to warm up or practice, I was only reminded of why I thought I hated it all in the first place. It's also an injury risk to run right into it (pun intended).

To help us, I drew up a schedule for our Couch to 5k training and marked down when we completed each step. Seeing our progress, our persistence, was part of our fuel. I couldn't bare not being able to cross off a day. Feeling so good about each run lead me to get up out of bed and jump into my running clothes each early morning before sunset. I certainly wasn't always chipper and happy before the runs, but I was after. I've never regretted a run!

I discovered that I can actually run for a sustained amount of time. The first time I ran for a solid five minutes, I couldn't believe it. The first time I ran for a solid twenty and completed half of a 5k, I couldn't believe it. I remember expressing such pure excitement to my husband after my first twenty minute run in Duboce Park one early November morning among happy dogs and their owners. I was almost in tears. It just took some time, building up from one minute to thirty to forty to complete 5 kilometers (3.1 miles). That's all. Patience and persistence with the sweet reward of self accomplishment.


When I run, I'm a rock star in my head and on the pavement.

6. Enjoying my surroundings.
Every time I run the two-mile loop from Church and 30th to Church and 22nd, I notice something new. Those runs from scummy SoMa to the majestic Golden Gate Bridge, climbing Fort Mason and skimming heron-speckled Crissy Field, never get old. Even though I run around Lake Merced almost every Sunday, I'm always taken by the way the elusive sun sparkles on the water, dancing on the ripples created by local rowing teams. Nature!

7. Doing a lot in thirty minutes. 
Whether I'm practicing speed on the treadmill or taking a jaunt around the neighborhood, I can cover between 2.5 and 3 miles in a half hour. (Actually, 3 miles is 30 minutes is something I'm trying to get to, and it ain't easy.) Think about what 2 to 3 miles is. It's kind of far, but when you walk or run it, it's not that far. You could run to the store, buy a candy bar, and run home!


Me after my first 10k.
8. Camaraderie with other runners.
When I pass other runners, sometimes we make eye contact and shoot each other a knowing nod or smile. I especially love acknowledging other women runners, giving them a kind of "you go girl" smile and getting one in return.

When I was doing my first 9 mile run, turning into my second loop around Lake Merced, I passed a walking gentleman for the third time. He said, "You doing this again?!" I nodded. His response? "You go girl!" And you know what, good for him for getting out and exercising too!

9. Food.
While you shouldn't go crazy, you can totally make an excuse to indulge after burning 1500+ calories from running a half marathon!

After our last one, my husband and I limped home, laid in bed for a while, and eventually forced ourselves up to Giovanni's down the street where we pounded down a large stuffed crust pepperoni pizza. And root beers. And a Cesar salad drowned in chemically-dangerous dressing. It was great.

10. Gaining a better body image.
On one of my first runs out in the neighborhood, a man hollered to me "You don't need to do that, girl! You look hella fine!" The entire spectrum of why I resent that comment could be a whole post in itself. For now, I will focus on the body image facet. Assuming I was exercising because I wanted to be thinner or want to look more "hella fine?" Boo! I wasn't trying that. I want a healthier heart, there's that. I want to be able to live as long as possible, too. Overall, losing weight isn't really in my top five.

Still, I've developed a much better outlook toward my body. Like many people who went through middle school and high school (like, everyone, right?) I had to learn to love my body. In high school, I had a difficult time managing emotions and bottled up frustrations came out as binging and purging. Really bad. I ended up losing weight, and began getting compliments on how I looked. That just fueled my bad habits. College helped me with my food issues, but after a summer in a physically demanding job loading and pushing carts of library books, I lost weight again. And, again, I was told that I looked better and again I felt pressured to keep it up or else not look good, as if being heavier meant something was wrong with me.

While training for my first half, I lost ten pounds. The loss only became truly apparent to me during a routine physical at my doctor's. She said it was a good thing, and that if I wanted to lose more, which I could if I wanted, then I should just keep doing what I've been doing. So, I have.

I don't love the way I feel when I don't run for a while. I don't love the heaviness or the softness that drifts back in. But, when I do run for months at a time and feel fit, I know it's because I am doing something healthy for me. I'm now aware of what this body of mine can actually do.

I feel every millimeter of my joints and thank humanity for inventing sweat-slicking pants so that I can run without major chaffing between my thighs (because I never likely never get a thigh gap per my body type or per lack of giving a shit).

I look at my 30-year-old body and know it can take me far. I don't see "fat" or "skinny." Sometimes I see "hella fine" sometimes I see stretch marks and blemishes and move on. I always see a body with a mind, a will, and a heart to got me far and can keep going.


High school gym class will never have anything on me.

11. Parts of your body chafe that you didn't know could chafe. 
I seriously got chaffing on my face. My FACE. Wanna know how? Ask me. Why am I happy about this? It makes me laugh.

12. Why I'm here writing this today.
I talk a lot about Lake Merced. Near the end of a recent run on the 4.6~ loop, I was thinking about what in the hell I want to do with my life (besides run). I had a cliche kind of epiphany moment where I realized all I need to do is have more time for my own creativity. Not just make time, but have more time. I will get more into that in my third 3 for 30 post, but for now I can say that I wouldn't be sitting down and working on this without that clarity running brings to me.

13. High school gym class will never have anything on me. 
Twice now I've announced to social media that I've completed a major race and said something along the lines of "Take that high school gym class!" I suppose I can make it a thing, maybe make a hashtag out of it. I say it over and over because the biggest hurdle for me to get into any exercising was high school gym class. For me it was rarely fun, always annoying, and never a skill-learning experience.

Think of one good memory you've had in gym class. If you've had one, please, tell the world about it. If you somehow never took a school gym class, consider this:

You're told in so many words to run four times around the track or else you won't get any credit for the day, which will count toward your final grade and graduation. The fear of actually flunking high school...yep. You're not really given any direction, just "run!" It's hot, you're already sweating from the trek from the school to the track, and you're worried about having BO in your next class. You have a history test to take later. You're hungry because the lunch options sucked. You make it a quarter of the way around the track once and quit because of the aforementioned reasons and because the boys are staring at your boobs.

So, who would ever enjoy high school gym class? (Hey, smartasses, don't say it's the boys staring at your boobs!)

Going back to my experience training, learning how to run, eating better, not caring that I'll stink on the bus ride home, not giving a shit about what dudes holler at me on the street, I've definitely conquered high school gym class. So, take THAT high school gym class!

.1 There always more miles to go...

Thanks for reading! This is the second part of my 3 for 30 series. Please come back for the last part!

Monday, August 27, 2012

Big Gay 10K!

Another race? Why, yes! I've been wanting to try a 10K since my first 5K in January. Now I have a chance, a fabulous chance! 

Check out this screen grab from my Big Gay 10K fundraising page. The September 15th race benefits the San Francisco Aids Foundation. As part of my participation, I'm attempting to collect at least $100 for the organization.
So far, I've got $10. See how easy? To donate, visit my page.

Stay tuned for updates!